Before, I was so stupid. But, you know, when you have friends who died on the street, you say, okay, let's calm down. It's not the kind of energy I want to have in life. I want to go slower, and longer.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I feel I've lived so long, and went through so much, that all I want is calm and rest.
When I was young, I was in a hurry to live. And now I'm just not in a hurry.
If you've never felt that you quite got a hold of it, you just feel that before you die, you've got to try and get it right once. And hope that the experience you have makes up for the some of the diminishing energy.
I know I'm drinking myself to a slow death, but then I'm in no hurry.
I realize now I didn't really want to die. I just wanted to stop the hurt and pain.
I know if I react, and I want to get mad, and emotions come to the surface, I think quickly of my friends who have died and how they overcame their struggle and used their cancer and their lives for the betterment of mankind, and it sets me back in place.
You hear about things happening to people - they slip in the bathtub, fall down the stairs, step off the curb in London because they think that the cars come the other way - and they die. You feel you want to die making an effort at something; you don't want to die in some unnecessary way.
Most people don't know what's happening around them because they're just speeding through life. And before they know it, they're just old. So I just try to slow it down.
I have this tremendous energy. I just loved and love life. I love it today. I never want to die.
I don't want to die as long as I can work; the minute I can not, I want to go.