At the age of 31, I realized, 'Oh my God, I may die like everyone else.'
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
You can't be as old as I am without waking up with a surprised look on your face every morning: 'Holy Christ, whaddya know - I'm still around!' It's absolutely amazing that I survived all the booze and smoking and the cars and the career.
I was darkly convinced that at age 52 I would kill myself because my mother committed suicide at that age. I was fantasizing that she was waiting for me on the other side of the grave.
There is a way that a younger person can accept the inevitable problem that they're going to die, whereas somebody a little bit older might be overcome.
I don't like being 50 and I don't like thinking about death.
This year, when I turn 65, I thought, 'So weird;' when I was a kid, people who were 65 either retired or died. I'm so nowhere near that.
I had assumed that I would age with all my friends growing old around me, dying off very gradually one by one. And here was a plague that cut them off so early.
You get older and you see yourself and say, 'God, he's old, who's that?'
When I was 15, I never thought I'd live to see 21. And then I became 21, and I'm like, 'I'll never live to see 30.'
I always thought I was going to die before I was 60.
I am too old to die young, and too young to grow up.